Somehow

[Verse 1: EXPSR]
Everything in the making
Still slipping deeper in the matrix
Yeah, how far could I go deep down the pavement
With no connections on this road I'm taking?
I know we're not related
We're on a different fragrance
You seem so satisfied with just good enough
While I just strive for greatness
I'm up, my eye lids open and my mind racing
Stressing bout all the time wasted
Got a deadline in like five days and I
Cannot find where my motivation lies
Aww, maybe, I will fall chasing
My goal's huge and I'm out of patience
Just another day with nothing changing
Feeling out of place in my home, crazy
Hope the liquor save me
Thought it wasn't lust
Thought I really was in love
But she's just a picture lately
I must admit I'm faded
I feel the room spinning right around me
While I switch a song that I can't stand
But that might have been my favorite
A time ago but I'm changing
I might have loved but now maybe
Just memories with our faces
I keep burying with new pages
I keep writing them in new places
Been out to Denmark, now I came back
And I'm thinking how to escape this
To start from scratch or erase it, somehow

[Verse 2: EXPSR]
Got doubts I feel it greatly
I still try to keep evading
I found a way to keep them fading
I'm fine got tired a bit from blaming
Myself, I might have been too hating
Sought violently for vengeance
I tried finding things that made sense
Now I'm firing my engine
Trial tribulation
I'm trying revelations
I stumbled on half faded
There's more to life than I made it
There's more to die for than a paycheck
Personify me, never fake it
Yeah, fuck a nine to five, can't take it
Need a lifetime vacation
I don't give a fuck, never gave it
But I can't quit, what I'm saying?
Why I'm going for it is it crazy?
How you gonna make it
When nobody in the country never made it?
What you gonna say
When everybody out here will see you failing?

On the couch sinking
Deeper in my thinking
Spent so many minutes, hours
Put like hundred thou' in this
Want a pool full of liquor
So I can fucking dive in it
Want a room full of bitches
So I can lose my mind in it, alright