Solace

Many dreadful thoughts, I hope I hide them well
Eerie mental spaces, that I've been keeping to myself
Horrid ways to cope, only thing that's swell
Fighting off my urges, falling out of my shell

Mental fortitude of steel, heart will start to kneel
Learning brand new words, as I'm learning how I feel
Teeth feel like they're rotting, brain in need of a peel
How will I continue when I feel like nothings real

Looking at my hands, still don't think they're mine
I'm a different me, I feel this all the time
Everywhere I go, it feels like there's a sign
It says, "Sit and Stare, watch him crack and shine!"

I can't pace myself, I can never win
In a brand new hell, freed by all of my kin
I won't show and tell, you would never hear the end
Smiling everyday, while my thoughts start to descend

Many dreadful thoughts, I hope I hide them well
Eerie mental spaces, that I've been keeping to myself
Horrid ways to cope, only thing that's swell
Fighting off my urges, falling out of my shell

Mental fortitude of steel, heart will start to kneel
Learning brand new words, as I'm learning how I feel
Teeth feel like they're rotting, brain in need of a peel
How will I continue when I feel like nothings real