So It Goes

It wasn’t enough, it just wasn’t enough
We made eyes just to disconnect lives
And I just want her to lie with me tonight
Lie to me tonight and say it’s going to be alright
We used to sleep like a braid
Now the both of us are tugging at a thread
We hoping it don’t break
Painstaking to stay but we both know the fray
Caught at a funeral, wondering where June went
I was a student of you in your moonlit movement
Bed sheets used to croon the sweetest music
Now it’s usually bruises
A routine that’s set in sediment, argument
Then sex and settlement
And nothing hurts worse than falling out of it
You try to cover up but you know it’s counterfeit
I tried to cover up
Rust encrusted heron must give up the sparrow
Trust I’m stuck with wearing this arrow in my lung
A hook in my gut leaking marrow in the dust
Looking for my steel tipped dove
And that’s how the real lose love
I’m on the brink just waiting for a shove
And when it comes I’ll shrug
And spread my arms in a brand new suit
While the birds shoot a 21 gun salute
She drew me bloody, ruined me monthly
June she starts to hug me
September says she loves me
December’s sky was ugly
May Day she say she’s leaving
After we made it through the rainy season
June she’s back with two reasons
Why I should let her back
Bed the ax, Medusa’s trying to take the scepter back
I can’t accept her after that
After a winter spent in discontent for this lament
And when she left I felt free
With a piece of me missing
Easy to fall in but unseasonably frost bitten
But who am I kidding? It’s not meant for me
I’m too selfish with mine and terrible at timing
Climbing up mountains
Doubting if I’ll ever find that level ground
They says it’s better when the love is lost than never found
Caught in a storm cloud, honestly worn out
First we fight then you storm out
It wasn’t enough, it just wasn’t enough //
I gave time but it wasn’t enough
My heart and my spine, it wasn’t enough
My bark, my roots, my leaves, my tree, it wasn’t enough
And so it goes, the v-e is out of place with the l-o
And now I run around town with a busted up mouth
Busted up jaw, and some busted up ribs
A cut from a saw, something’s got to give
Must be the way I live, must be just me
Rusty old tree in the center of the cemetery
Fighting off teeth
And she wonders why I get no sleep
And she wonders why the willows weep
I remember all that pillow speak
Now every night I drink myself to finding new shelter
Cause everyday is so cold, but you know how that goes
And so it goes