So fucked up

I'm fallin', I'm fallin'
You say I don't put my all in
You could hear, yeah, my chain danglin' on my neck
Yeah, that bitch sparklin'
And I thought I could never fall for you
Thought I could put my all in you
Now I'm steady out here callin' you
Think 'bout you, I'm seein' red
All in my head
I let you down
Yeah, you should've left
Now I think I'm so fucked up, 'cause you still here
I think that it's so fucked up, how you the realest
And I did you so fucked up, yeah, I felt it
How I did you so fucked up, and I didn't mean it
I just need to flow one up, so I could feel shit
My heart was broken down, and you healed it
Now it's just me, all alone
Sittin' here, inside this booth
Sittin' here, with these thoughts
Thinkin' what I'm finna do
I can rеally buy [?], I proved to you, I'm into you
I do not want to still drift away, I swear, baby girl, I'm feelin' you
She tеllin' me put the drugs away, but it's the same thing that's killin' you
I'm really startin' to lose my mind, deterioratin' from all the shit
Walk in the party, like, "What the fuck goin'?"
I'm finna take me a trip to [?]
Look at my pants, what I got on? Rick Owen
I fell in love with the bands, galore
She wanna tell me, "Get your shit together"
'Fore, I tell her, "I'm tryin' hard"
If anybody put they hands on you, well, me and my killers, we goin' to war
I really like spendin' these bands on you
Walk in the store, you could get what you want
I was just seventeen, bought me a car
My shawty, always tell me I'm a boss
So I just buy her that Christian Dior