So close so far

This is not okay
I am not okay
You don't have to go
We will find another way
Get back to me now
To the love that I have
To this love that I gave
To the world that I had
Loved you to the max
Gave the clothes off my back
Don’t mess up this home
Don't leave me alone
I was just getting used to you
We just started getting close
Get back in my arms
Get back when you're calm
Come back when you relax
Relax in my heart
So close, so far
Never felt so lost
Some things got to really change
I’m not takin' any blame
I needed this heartbreak to go and buy a couple chains
I'm not worried 'bout no one
I'm not tryin' to be the one
I'ma whip around and stunt
All this money comin' in
I’ma go and spend a ton, yeah
Lambo doin’ burn outs, tire marks all on the road
Couple bitches numbers that I hit up when I'm bored
I go out to Nobu Malibu with all my bros
I like all the public mentions everybody knows
But God knows
I love the attention that I get from all these
Got no patience for ’em at all I ignore these
They make up their own when they don't got no stories
Everybody knows, yeah
I don't fuck around with no one, yeah
Couple bitches on the cocaine
Let me smash with all my woes, yeah

This is not okay
I am not okay
If you want to go
I won't ask for you to stay
You took a lot of love
But you gave a lot of pain
I fought a lot of words
Defendin’ your name
Keep it to yourself if you know I don't want to know
Keep it to yourself don't ever kill my peace and vibes
I won't ever say I hate or love you anymore
Just so you always wonder and it kills you inside
I am not okay, get away, need some space from this place, mind your business if I'm dead or alive
'Cause now you're just a stranger, I don't need ya, if you come back, I will leave ya, all alone in the middle of the night

I've been feelin' so off, yeah
I've been feelin' so lost, yeah
There is nothin' left to fight for
We were so close yet so far, yeah
Should've did your part, yeah
Look at what you just lost, yeah
Now there's nothin' left to fight for
We were so close yet so far, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Now there's nothin' left to fight for
So close yet so far, yeah