So Alone Pt.1

[Chorus/Hook]
And I’ve been going through hell;
Caught in a vicious spell
Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell
I’m feeling so alone, I think I’m 'bout to explode
System overload

[Verse 1: ARMAGEDDON]
I'm not good enough
I'm worthless
Stuck on you like my first kiss
You still are my first love
Never been high before
Suggest me some good drugs
Cuz I need to numb the pain
You're etched
Into my fucking brain
Youre slowly, driving me insane
While I'm quickly, driving you away
You told me you loved me
What a fucking lie
Cus I found out
You were waiting for that other guy
And I've been hurt
A lot before
Think I found the key to love
But now you're blocking
The damn door
I'm fighting
Don't know what for
Do I even give a fuck
Or do I give a fuck more
I'm high now
Don't even know what I'm on
I think it's working
I don't know whats going on
I'm losing it
Losing my damn mind
Phone dead, can't even check the time

[Chorus/Hook]
And I’ve been going through hell;
Caught in a vicious spell
Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell
I’m feeling so alone, I think I’m 'bout to explode
System overload

[Verse 2: Conflicted Prodigy]
Tell me where you are, and why I'm not there
Because ever since you've left, I've become more aware
Of this hole in my chest, that is always aching
I know I want you back, there is no mistaking
So tell me exactly what I did and where I went wrong
Cause without you by my side I can't get along
By myself, how am I supposed to face my inner demons?
Please wake me up and tell me that I'm only dreaming
Cause if this is reality then put me to sleep
Take me out of my misery and to the Lord my soul to keep
They say there's strength in numbers, but I'm all alone
I'm calling out to you, but you never pick up the phone
I've become best friends with your answering tone
Words never hurt, but this silence alone
Hurts way worse than any stick or stone
Listen, I'm sorry that I messed up, but I'm accident prone

[Chorus/Hook]
And I’ve been going through hell;
Caught in a vicious spell
Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell
I’m feeling so alone, I think I’m 'bout to explode
System overload

[Verse 3: ARMAGEDDON]
So baby last night I was drinking
No, I'm sorry wait
Last night I was thinking
We should get away
Just for the weekend
And then maybe we can stay
And be in peace then
I got a room
We can stay up at the Easton
Get something to eat then
Go back to the room, yea we'll just creep in
Slide into bed
Forget, all the stupid shit we said
So baby last night I was smoking
No, sorry again
Last night I was home and
You kept appearing in my thoughts
That's when
I did some digging, pull out some cloths
Just the old blanket you gave me
We were just teens then, still are, but it got me thinking
As I always do, what I did was dumb
But I never stopped thinking of you

[Chorus/Hook]
And I’ve been going through hell;
Caught in a vicious spell
Blinded by the lies, crossed course, stumbled and fell
I’m feeling so alone, I think I’m 'bout to explode
System overload

[Verse 4: ARMAGEDDON]
So baby last night I was cheating
No, I'm sorry, I was having trouble breathing
So baby last night I did it all again
I'm not even sorry, but maybe we can pretend
What we had never reached an end
I'll just give you my hand if you give me yours
A second chance, something we didn't get before
If you want, what are you waiting for
We can start this all over