Smile

[Verse]
Don't tell me I should smile more 'cause it ain't nothing funny
Last year I lost my girl, I lost my mind, and I lost my money
God I know my future got a mansion with some acres
Signed a deal and spent the check on school and immigration papers
Don't come to me for sympathy 'cause I don't feel a thing
Situations in my life done pushed a nigga to the brink
Been so long since I been happy, can't remember how to think
Coasting by on autopilot, I could probably use a shrink
Please don't tell me I should smile more
You don't see the nights that I'm awake
'Cause that image of my brother in his casket won't erase
Bills got my momma stressing, pinching pennies just to pay
All because my father took the cash and sniffed it all away
I'on wanna smile and I'on got a reason
Right now the only positive in life is that I'm breathing
But I don't feel like I'm living really I'm just existing
How many tapes will it take to get these dumb niggas to listen?
Don't say I'm underrated if you ain't gon' buy my album
I know we all got problems but right now I got a thousand
So many walked away just when I needed 'em the most
But if I gotta do it solo trust me I'ma ball without 'em
I'ma ball without 'em