​sm pain in mh

[Intro]
Tied for silver
(So much pain in my heart)
(I don't know where to start)
(I keep rollin' up blunts and smokin' 'em all in the dark)
(Closed in the stu' making art)
(About everything that's apart)
(Of my life and marked me to the point where I can't even talk)
(To anybody I know)
('Bout anything that I go)
(Through everyday is a struggle, wakin' up wishin' I don't)
(Shit got me feeling so low)
(Going through this all alone)
(I got nobody to relate to but a pillbox and a—)

[Chorus]
So much pain in my heart
I don't know where to start
I keep rollin' up blunts and smokin' 'em all in the dark
Closed in the stu' making art
About everything that's apart
Of my life and marked me to the point where I can't even talk
To anybody I know
'Bout anything that I go
Through everyday is a struggle, wakin' up wishin' I don't
Shit got me feeling so low
Going through this all alone
I got nobody to relate to but a pillbox and a bong

[Verse]
Everyday is the same, but just a little bit different
Today I was the guilty one again, 'cause I didn't listen
Yesterday it was still my fault, but surely for another reason, I think
Shit never changes, despite us changing the seasons
I suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
Sick of bastards who fold and runaway like they lizards
Acting like you are Dr. Connors, I'ma beat you like peter
Ain't no way you betraying me, I'm sick of being beaten

[Bridge]
Not my choice to be born
Not my decision
If it was up to me
I'd be in a grave not breathing
All the bones that you broke
Are the reason
Why you're so bad for me
But keep me from kneeling

[Chorus]
So much pain in my heart
I don't know where to start
I keep rollin' up blunts and smokin' 'em all in the dark
Closed in the stu' making art
About everything that's apart
Of my life and marked me to the point where I can't even talk
To anybody I know
'Bout anything that I go
Through everyday is a struggle, wakin' up wishin' I don't
Shit got me feeling so low
Going through this all alone
I got nobody to relate to but a pillbox and a bong