Sleep Paralysis

I have this damn epiphany the one where you would get with me
But this all was just a dream so now im back to sipping lean
This is hard to justify stay in bed all day and night
I swear i feel paralyzed cause motivations out of sight
I swear its so hard to find i blame her for all of these lies
But the again we are the same i told her that i was fine
Without you girl i would die just go ahead and ditch that guy
With me you'd be in paradise but we do not see eye to eye
I'm the boy who ran from love
Cause when i think about you girl i go back to the drugs
You asked me if i'd stop it but i just can't get enough
The only thing that's stopping me from drinking is your touch
But you took it away from me
I thought you just wanted to help but you're staying away from me
I would just be grateful for you to come spend a day with me
But you just can't cause your boyfriend is getting in the way you see
I lose grip of reality and you go off with him
I think of fake scenarios of what we could have been
I snap back to reality and go back to the gin
I have to face the fact that me and you are only friends
I think of all i gave you what made you just run away dude
I think of selfish lies i told and how i can't escape you
I think about you everywhere i go that's why i can't move
Now here's a fucking list of reasons why i wanna date you
Beauty in your eyes, face, body, personality
You make me feel like i'm asleep, charging up my batteries
Without you girl i would jump right off of that balcony
Like Zachary
You sending some mixed signals like a router be
I know i'm not the best and i know that i'm obsessed
It's so fucking hard to rest when you're all that's in my head
I been laying in my bed and it's hard for me to get up
Every time i start to tear up i go right back to the syrup
Aunt jemima ain't gon do it
Not even mucinex
I need straight up fucking codeine and a 30 percocet
I been wishing for my death
Ever since she got with him
I can't even trust my friends
I been on a drug binge