​​sisyphus pushing

[Intro]
​rip
Swiftly
Cry

[Chorus: ch2rms]
I get anxiety everytime that I talk out loud
I'm a player in the game, but I feel out of bounds
Suffer
We used to talk, I need your warmth, yeah, I need yo' closure
They used to listen to how I feel, now I get cold shouldered
Cry
I start to think about myself, it's 'cause I'm gettin' older
Call me Sisyphus, I'm pushin' pain like it's a boulder
Suffer
I hate myself so much, I talk about it like I'm proud
Screamin' for some help, they tellin' me I ain't that loud
I don't wanna bother you, I don't want the words to hurt
Keep on lyin' to myself and take it with me to the dirt
Suffer
Keep on talkin' to you, keep on talkin' to you, yeah, I feel a lot of pain
Keep on talkin' to you, keep on talkin' to you, yeah, I'm feelin' super drained

[Verse 1: ch2rms]
I get attached too easily
[?]
These Percs, they eatin' me
I don't admit it, but I'm always on low
Can't do it, yeah, I don't wanna go
Can't do it, yeah, I'm feelin' so slow
Please leave and let me go, uh
I can't wake up, what's the point to try?
Passed the [mystic outlet?], [?], wanna cry
I do it to myself, I don't know why or how I complain
What's the point of trying? Everything is feelin' lame

[Verse 2: mental]
Over and over, I try
Over and over, you lie
Is it my fault if you die?
It's gettin' [?]
Are you there to be by my side?
Will you never be my [life?]?
I'm scared and I close my eyes
Emotional, say goodbye

[Bridge: mental]
I need you [?]
You're never there for me, there for me
No

[Chorus: ch2rms]
I get anxiety everytime that I talk out loud
I'm a player in the game, but I feel out of bounds
We used to talk, I need your warmth, yeah, I need yo' closure
They used to listen to how I feel, now I get cold shouldered
I start to think about myself, it's 'cause I'm gettin' older
Call me Sisyphus, I'm pushin' pain like it's a boulder
I hate myself so much, I talk about it like I'm proud
Screamin' for some help, they tellin' me I ain't that loud
I don't wanna bother you, I don't want the words to hurt
Keep on lyin' to myself and take it with me to the dirt
Keep on talkin' to you, keep on talkin' to you, yeah, I feel a lot of pain
Keep on talkin' to you, keep on talkin' to you, yeah, I'm feelin' super drained

[Outro]
Skin
Do you know why you hate yourself so much? Maybe it's because you can't be in your own skin
Skin
Do you know why you hate yourself so much? (Skin)