Siphon

[Verse 1]
Scrape the floor of the tank to just get by
And you wouldn't believe me if I tried
So I go around and around and around in circles
Trying my hardest to not feel worthless
I'll make a promise and carry the burden, knowin'
You'll watch it fall through the palm of my hands

[Pre-Chorus]
If all is going well, I'm not myself

[Chorus]
I'm going through another breakdown, another reason to change
The things about me that you wanted erased
I could never be the man you want me to be
It siphons, it siphons all the joy out of me

[Post-Chorus]
(Siphons all the joy out of me)
(Siphon, siphon, siphon)

[Verse 2]
Yeah, it's alright, I know I'm the first to say that
It's irrational to put me in this place
You know I drag my feet in rewriting habits in my brain (My brain, my brain, my brain)
Like how I give up who I am for the smile on your face
'Cause all my serotonin is the price I would pay
And now I'm feeling hollow, 'cause the chemicals fading away, away, away

[Chorus]
I'm going through another breakdown, another reason to change
The things about me that you wanted erased
I could never be the man you want me to be
It siphons, it siphons all the joy out of
Everythin' my intuition once held close
Kill my second nature, put to death what I know
No matter what I'm telling you, you just won't see
That it siphons, it siphons all the joy out of me

[Outro]
So I go around and around and around in circles
Trying my hardest to not feel worthless, ah