SINNER

[Verse]
I was livin' on the wrong path
I was sippin' on the con, yeah
I remember dippin', the position spittin'
Hwah-pooh, where my boss at?
I'm on a job and I don't wanna do it
Nobody is tellin' me, you ain't my mom
You ain't my mom, you ain't my boss
On the Fourth of July, watch me oohin' and ahh
Growin' up I was an angry kid, I ain't denyin' it
I was not angry to people outside of me, it was inside of me
Or anybody wit' emotions suppressed (Ee)
Needed to open a vent, felt like a hole in my chest
Needed to cope with the stress and the coke is my only component to rest, hmm
Knew it was wrong, didn't care, though
I need the beer, went for here and to go
Looked in a mirror and the Spirit appeared
The appearance is weird 'cause He wanted my soul
I could just hear Him, thought it was a ghost
It was apparent that I had to go
And then I heard the voice above
It sounded like love, it sounded like love?
"Don't do that, Eric, look at yourself (Look at yourself)
Don't you want some healthy mental health?
God wants to use you, it's astounding
If you quit right now, ten years down the road
You'll make an album 'bout it, He'll allow it (He'll allow it)
It's His power that He manifests through broken people like yourself"
Honestly, I don't get it, y'all is trippin'
You know you got the wrong one, right?
'Cause right now I'm 'bout to have myself a long fun night, heh
I've been livin' for a minute
I don't really wanna have no conversation
I'ma need the patience, I need vacation
Why am I wasted? Why am I wastin' time on vanity?
Had to be out of me, this is so damaging to my family
God, enter me, this how it has to be
Are You mad at me? Thought You had a plan for me
Back to bein' broke, no choke wit' it
Back to seein' smoke or soul in it
Me some ice cream, Stone Cold wit' it (Stone Cold wit' it)
I ain't lyin', I was sittin' sidelines, didn't hide, hide, hide
We not friends if we not in sync, bye, bye, bye
Need a drink, need to think
Somethin' don't feel right, kinda feels like heart beatin' out the chest
These days I don't get a lot of rest
Really feel 'em in the mess, I don't wanna stress
But them hella stressed, 'cause they got a debt that they haven't paid
How am I gonna pay? They gon' break my neck, yeah
I don't wanna live like this no more
Playin' cards timeframe, '04
My way of livin' was a closed door
Opened up when I said "Oh Lord"

[Outro]
Lord Jesus, I'm not perfect
For I've sinned
But I believe in You
Save me, change me
I give You my life