Singularity (Northlane Audition)

I always thought I could escape this
Like silence was all that I’d need
I found a bliss in my ignorance
Until ignorance found hell in me
Somehow I’d always feel tired
Although I’d lose days to sleep
You said that you thought I was dying
I guess I just couldn't see

Life went on in that way for so long
Unable to determine whether I was sleeping or awake
Because neither felt real
I never seemed to dream all that much
And when I did they were so mundane that I didn't care for them anyway
I was decaying, wasting away
So lugubrious that I left the atoms in my bones to corrode
Unable to summon the strength, mental nor physical
To help myself out of the bed that I had made;
But at the same time so afraid
Of burdening someone that I left myself to fall apart

Day turned to night, night to day
And each time the sunlight streamed through my window
I felt more transparent than I did the morning before
Kept company only by the sound of my thoughts echoing in the hole
That I had paced in the floor boards

I let go

I lay my body at the bottom of a hole that I had dug
So deep within in my mind
That I could no longer see the light of the sun
I could no longer hear the voices of people
That I had always claimed that I had loved
Despite the reassurances
I was convinced I was never enough

It took years to convince myself
That no man has his future set in stone
You may lose your way but you’re never too far gone
You are the light you are seeking the warmth of
You are the love it would take to make your house a home
And no one should have to feel as though they’re alone