SING ABOUT ME (FOR PATTY)

[Verse]
Word, disbelief is all I received from my momma
I can't blame her, I can't remember the last time I was honest
I lost myself in the process
Like, how can I find myself just with the closet full of lies that pile up to the top of it
I was dealing with consequence, and I ain't talking from moms
I'm talking 'bout the shit that made it hard to get a job
You caught me walking to my girls, you made it hard to walk
You and your homies jumped me, but you had a mask, and I still saw your face
I know you'll be upset when I climb high in ranks
And when I'm climbing, I'll be sure to look behind me and say "Don't waste your time climbing, you know you will die trying. But shit, I do admire your attempts", cause I'm afraid
5th grade, word
Already missed my 9th assignment
I used to run away hoping they'd say "Let's find him"
Wasn't Mike Tyson but I always came home to fighting
Sparks fly in my mind, body in overtime
I'ma get sober the same moment that pigs fly
5 in the morning smoking, you can tell by these eyes
Bitch, what do you mean fine?
Was this all a dream?
Let me guess, you gon' tell me that I can't overthink things?
Just know I'm past it
All them memories fake, I call it plastic
Don't worry 'bout the shit that I gave you, you can just have it
Break up in traffic and often just cause havoc in a t-boy's mind
I can see it from the 3-point line
Wondering if what you told me was real
If you looking up above me, motivate me to heal
Cause as of lately, I been dwelling on your death and the mighty sense of it
Just might cause me to repent to a non-existent entity to give me comfort in this situation I hide
Homie, it's none your business
You're the only reason I'm actually into fitness
And I fucking hate cancer, what is this shit?
They told me, I wouldn't listen
I'm conscious in my bedroom with my auntie that passed
I was smoking crack and jokes, hope my homies would laugh
She said "Dylan, graduate", so I just told her "I'll pass. 2026, you'll see me with a cap in the back"
On graduation, when they told me "You'll pass", I couldn't take it
But I put on my face, faked a smile that day
I really hope your face could be seen from stars in my oasis
And if I can't, let me see your car run away from all the problems of life
I'm too silenced to fight
Can you acknowledge I wanna go to college and write?
Shit, that's honest
I know I'm not usually, but just take this with the biggest rock, not a grain of salt, I'm paper chasing
Inside my homie's crib, we always find ourselves drinking
When it's my time up, I don't give a fuck, I'm still breathing
My momma worried, ain't sleeping, I guess we have things in common
My homie passed the bill a second later, I just popped it
From my way back to the block after my mom moved
So every time I was out, I was selling with sketchy dudes in Sketcher shoes
Only other hobby shooting hoops
And my mom sent me the outreach before I got to use a gun that shoots, boom boom, been doomed for many moons
This Henny was just the moon
Meet Benny, Ali, and Rogue
Ran a smooth 2 man
The back of this used van felt beautiful off of booze
Really, I can't lie to you
If you want the truth, I felt hated and abused since my youth
Can you guide me to the light, is that hard?
It's alright, I'll prolly end up in the back of a car, flashing lights