This song is about an abusive relationship. It accurately describes its dynamics: power games, controlling, verbal and physical abuse on the one side, dependency on the abusive partner and inability to leave them on the other side. This song describes and reflects on such a relationship and the long...
[Verse 1]
I still remember when I met you on my block
Waiting at the bus stop
You were trying to spit game, but I didn't wanna talk
I was only fifteen and in need of a friend
Next day you caught me slippin at the bus stop again
Posted with my homie Juice, we was introduced
Mama said: Be careful who you give your heart to
And it's true, cause, when I gave it to you
There really was no limits to the things that I would do
At sixteen I gave birth to your son Zaya
He's my life-saver, but his daddy's just a player
They say that love is blind, but what I come to find
Is that love shouldn't make you feel sick all the time
And now I realise that this love was merely fear
Now I see to clear, when I'm looking in the mirror
You give and you get, compromise and respect
After all you put me through, yo I still wish you the best
[Hook]
I've been thinking 'bout you every night, since you left
I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone)
I've been thinking 'bout you every night, since you left
I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone)
[Verse 2]
You was killing me slowy, but I couldn't even see it
Threats about taking my life when I talk about leaving
Emotionally tangled by your abusive lies
And I wanted Zaya to grow up with both parents by his side
Your pride so high and your ego so evil, deceitful
Never did I feel like your equal
People told me to leave, said I didn't deserve it
You shot down my self-esteem
Made me feel worthless on purpose
Said I'm flirting, just 'cause I'm laughing at a joke
Even had a dress code, I couldn't have let it go
My success without envy in your eyes and action
And every time we've made love, I felt no satisfaction
You dismissed my side of the story, you made me feel stupid
Put me down in front of my friends, why you always gotta do this?
Even spit in my face, in front of our son
That's when I knew, I knew that I was done
[Hook]
I've been thinking 'bout you every night, since you left
I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone)
I've been thinking 'bout you every night, since you left
I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone)
[Verse 3]
You were never the person you portrayed in the beginning
And without you by my side I feel I'm finally living
I was slipping in the darkness, but now I see the light
And it shines so bright from within me every night
I'ma keep pushin regardless, how do you love somebody who's heartless?
All I know is I'm gon' finish what I started
It's time to be a woman, I'm ready to grow up
Never saw myself as beautiful until we broke up
Now I'm going back to school, pursuing everthing I doubted
Sometimes I sit and wonder if you even think about it
If you even realise all the unnecessary drama
How could you be so cold to do that to your baby mama
Never knew you was a burden, until I stopped hurting
Until I started breathing and I opened up the curtain
I know this for certain, I'ma raise our baby right
And now I realise my importance in this life
[Hook]
I've been thinking 'bout you every night, since you left
I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone)
I've been thinking 'bout you every night, since you left
I realise I'm better off alone (alone, alone, alone)
Since You Left was written by REVERIE.
Since You Left was produced by LOUDEN.
REVERIE released Since You Left on Fri May 30 2014.