sidetracked

Think I'm gunna cry
[?]
I'm coming in last
I can't relax
Think about the past
It's all coming back
[?]

Cuz it's hard sometimes
Always fighting with my mind
But you know it tries to find
What you leave me left to find

[?]what you saying
So you're full of it
Yeah, I'm pretty sure that you're faking it
And I can't help wishing that you wish I'd tell the truth
But I can't tell if I'd wanna see it's really you

Think I'm gunna cry
[?]
I'm coming in last
I can't relax
Think about the past
It's all coming back
[?]

Fearful living, fear every day
Don't want to lose so you don't play
I'm so confused of what you say
And all you do is say

"Can you [?] if you're successful?"
And if it is then what you wanna do?
"You've been doing [?] for a while"
But it isn't true
Always call you for relations
Just don't tell me what the fuck to do
They say I do it wrong
But they don't understand, it's what I choose

Cuz it's hard sometimes
Always fighting with my mind
But you know it tries to find
What you leave me left to find

Think I'm gunna cry
[?]
I'm coming in last
I can't relax
Think about the past
It's all coming back
[?]