Sick Thoughts

[Verse]
Sick thoughts just travels through my membrane
Take a toke of mary jane just to keep tame
Don't push me cause I'm close to the edge
Got a nine millimeter and it's screaming out death
Seen a lot of bloodshed in the night time
Honestly I ain't in my right mind
I've been subjected to the streets all neglected and
Through the streets is how I got respected
I've been connected to all sorts of crime
In the span of 25 years a short life time
A gang of robberies, a couple of kidnaps
See me flossing these, them fools have been jacked
I've been wanted for all types of shit
Arrested at an early age, what type of life is this?
I've been shackled from my feet up and hand cuffed
Can't use excesses cause we all live ruthless had it rough
I've been shot at, stabbed and shot back
A couple of homies that could not be brought back
And that's that, that's life
A couple of older homies got 25 to life
All over gun fights, all in the sunlight
They never made it out to see them summer nights
Cause we all were brown and down and proud of how we live
Still roll around the spots like I don't give a shit
Knowing fools wanna split me
But I keep a ruger by my side
So why not try to get me?
I still refuse to lose
Walking around with a 12 gauge, .9 and a .22
I don't trip off the bullshit
Levas talking shit, fuck em homie, I got a full clip
I'd rather be caught with it then without it
I'd rather live in a cell then in the ground trick
So I will not, cannot and won't stop
No matter what happens in life I won't flop
I've got kids to feed I've got bills to pay
Until they take care of that fuck what they say
As far as I know I've figured out survival and
In any second I could be dead and I know
So I stroll with my head in the clouds and
Tell them haters ain't no taking me out