Shutterstep

What you wanna do, wanna do right now?
Bet you'll never do, never do it now. Want to do it?
Bet you're never gonna do it

I can buy my freedom
I can’t buy my happiness
I’d rather move in sadness
I’d rather not do half of this
I’d like to get good at practice and then get past this
I won’t outlast it
I get burned out quick
I paint my walls white and don’t invest in decorations
I alway choose slowly without much deliberation
I feel like everybody so obsessed with innovation
Or repeatin the same habits cause we happy and complacent
Don’t know what to make of it
So I stick to vague takes on shit
Nеver been courageous
Scared of shadows on thе caves and shit
Tiny little thorns cut deeper than expected
Got me looking for a thousand different reasons to neglect them

Still never thought to question
Why it bothers me the most to admit that I’m affected
Why keepin it close to the chest alway feelin the best when
There’s no course correction
The torso neglected
Bending out of shape
An illusion forced perspective
Spend another day
Feelin like provin your invested
Spin another way feelin like you cannot be trusted
Nothing
At least feels better than some assumptions
Or wanting
Or hoping
That one day you’ll be filled in
Color in the lines like children
I’m chillin
I live in my own feelings
Do I minimize an illness
I find subtle use of mole hills
Just to maximize the stillness

Swimmin through a humid day
Sun beyond the clouds barely servin to illuminate
Sweat drops on my flesh causin me stress
Thoughts been a mess stop
Sometimes I’ve gotta interject
We blame the internet for problems that we never solved
Now we serve a system that breaks our hearts and then dissolves
SO many avenues of frustration ultimately fall
On terms of service we’ve accepted with no option to withdraw