​she’s the one i want, but the one i can’t save

I've been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But I know you don't care
Why am I so broken on the inside?
Years go by, no time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight

I died when I realized that nothing's ever changed
Always on the edge, every week it's the same
And I'm so insane
I know it's not healthy but I think I love the pain
I hate feeling empty, so there's liquor in my veins
She's the one I want, but the one I can't save
Pictures that I cropped, shawty your my cocaine
I feel overclocked, I can feel my heart race

I don't like this
Overwhelmed and tired of it
I feel like I'm losing everyone
Everyone that's close
Since the time skip
More burdens that I can't fix
And I can't talk to anyone
Anyone it's so cold

I've been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But I know you don't care
Why am I so broken on the inside?
Years go by, no time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight

I thought I died last night
Ashes fall it's like
Everytime I'm in a dream
I can see it slowly bleed
I can't let go
But I might break my bones
I wish I could know
But this my only road

Crashing down with my potion
Losing feeling in my body like it's stolen
So why you down? Tell me why you feelin' hopeless
So much shit in life left me feelin' so broken