Shameful

Verse 1-

Been told that...

Don’t hold your hurt back you're on reversed paths

You're down bad, like why I did that?

Can I reverse that?

That’s too bad...

Sometimes I think back too much to relax

I’m stuck with old interruptions fucked up bout dumb shit

I focus but then we right back, I ran the same laps

My purpose I don’t deserve it I'm good on the surface

Them old days I beg for replays from friends I need you to hold me

And say I’m okay, I’m on the right way but it was far and distant

And no one missed it

Or heard me...

I build resentment

Soapbox confessions

I told you that I would be great I would stay up late just crying

Why can’t they see me and just say some nice things?

Hoo k1-

Shame I fought all for you

Insane

I stay up late stressed just fucking up again

Shame I fought all for you

Insane

I stay up late stressed just fucking up again

Verse 2-

It’s crazy...

I've been neglected and when you stepped in It sets in

You brought the stress in

I swiped my wrist then

I went to school counseling and you ain’t know that I went

I couldn’t...I couldn’t take it

I tried to fade it with hatred

Cried to my teachers, who do I talk to?

Because my safest place is where all the pain is

They told me you are way too strong and you did no wrong

I doubt it

I even feel bad for feeling this bad when people going through worse things

Who am I to say I’m hurting?

Somehow I learned to love all that has hurt you

And find a home inside my stress and say I don’t deserve you

So I thought with every problem I do deserve this

If you ain’t love me I ain’t good enough I’ll put some work in

If you ain’t love me I ain’t good enough I’ll put some work in

Falling flat I wanna drown and let my body surface

Reaching now I see there never was this perfect person

Hook 2-

Shame I fought all for you

Insane

I stay up late stressed just fucking up again

Shame I fought all for you

Insane

I stay up late stressed just fucking up again

Verse 3-

Can you love me for a moment please?

Been tryna figure out why u just see the worst in me

I’m chasing dreams to help you too while you stay fighting me

I used to plan how I’ma tell you off when you see me

When I get bank I’m just gonna flex on you so you feel stupid

But deep down I just want your heart or else this money useless

But you ain’t hearing me this message so someone else use it

To cry to when they got someone like you making them feel useless