Shadow of Myself

[Chorus: LongestSoloEver]
I will find myself
In these memories
Bring control into the chaos
Storming deep through all of me
Find the light I lost
Stem the entropy
The light, it fades but I remain
Will I always be a shadow of myself?

[Verse 1: The Stupendium]
Yet again, I pick up the pieces
Repeat and repeat 'til the sequence ceases
Tryna write a thesis defining me
In defiance of all the anxiety
It's like cryo-sleep, all those years locked away
While the whole world got to play
Self left to rot, decay
Now, I'm not the same
But it's not too late, 'cause I've got today
But what's today? All the flashbacks are cracking, the memories oscillate
As I grasp at the fragments, a destiny lost to shade
My whole past on display
Path gone astray and I forgot where I lost the way
So, allow me to postulate
On the nature of what it takes
To find heart to say that I'm not the fake
They say I'm fearless, they say I'm strong
They say I'm peerless and they're not wrong
But I was engineered for a job that's gone
So I spend the years just grinding on (Just grinding on)
Tell me, does it make you free or worthless
If you can't complete your purpose?
Am I the character between curse and cure
Or just surplus 'neath the surface?

[Chorus: LongestSoloEver]
I will find myself
In these memories
Bring control into the chaos
Storming deep through all of me
Find the light I lost
Stem the entropy
The light, it fades but I remain
Will I always be a shadow of myself?

[Verse 2: The Stupendium]
What's a hedgehog s'posed to do
When resolution's overdue?
It's been twenty years since I first appeared
And I still don't know the truth (Hmm)
Ain't nobody lived a life so gritty
As I blaze through midlife-crisis city
On a motorcycle with a loaded rifle
In the hopes the fight will quiet the nihlist in me
Cast from a demon and the dreams of madmen
That dream cast me left asleep, abandoned
Had my light dashed, still I see the pattern
Of an arc so dark it'd eclipse its canon
How many chapters and pages left?
As I cling to the last to escape the next
As I sift through the past on a razor's edge
As I pick which path on the stage select
How to find a way now I'm not programmed?
Now I've got no cage, but I've got no plan
On a final chase tryna find a place
But how am I to face when the clock throws hands? (Shadow)
What's the point of running at light speed
If I'm running from the choice of who I might be?
Live the life I lead, looking behind me
Because things were so much easier in the nineties
(It was just a simpler time, you know?)

[Chorus: LongestSoloEver]
I will find myself
In these memories
Bring control into the chaos
Storming deep through all of me
Find the light I lost
Stem the entropy
The light, it fades but I remain
Will I always be a shadow of myself?

[Bridge: The Stupendium]
Can't you see me at the window
With my hand against the glass?
Time is leaving me in limbo
Forced to languish in the past (Languish in the past)
Now a future lies before me
As I break from this machine (We all dance in fire)
Live and learn to write my story
Until I am all of me (I am all of me)

[Chorus: LongestSoloEver]
I will find myself
In these memories
Bring control into the chaos
Storming deep through all of me
Find the light I lost
Stem the entropy
The light, it fades but I remain
Will I always be a shadow of myself?

[Outro: The Stupendium]
The age I was playing Sonic Adventure 2 was probably the last point in my life I remember actually understanding everything
Who I am, where I’m going
The biggest problem in my life was trying to beat Cannon's Core and now I have a mortgage
Adulting is hard