[Verse 1]
For most of my life, I've
Sat on the sidelines
Watching the action
With careful attention
I never felt ready
To try with my own hands
Take back the controls and
Try to follow my own plans
[Refrain]
Follow my own plans
[Verse 2]
And that's where you found me
Quietly drowning
Desperately hoping
That someone would notice
You threw me a lifeline
I misunderstood it
I thought it was love
But it was really just goodness
[Chorus]
You know I'd die for you, for all that it's worth
I'd give my soul to you if I thought it'd do you good
And it's ironic, but the part that believes
Is the heaviest part of me
[Verse 3]
I know what you meant when
You said I'm a good friend
But you never quite said no
So the door never quite closed
My mind keeps replaying
Over and over
And it adds to the weight that
I keep on my shoulders
[Chorus]
You know I'd die for you, for all that it's worth
I'd give my soul to you if I thought it'd do you good
And it's ironic, but the part that believes
Is the heaviest part of me
[Bridge]
Oh, in my mind I still can see
The life that we'll never have
When I'm asleep at night, I dream
That someday you'll love me back
But I can't rewrite history
I just live in the shade it casts, that it casts, that it casts
[Chorus]
You know I'd die for you, for all that it's worth
I'd give my soul to you if I thought it'd do you good
And it's ironic, but the part that believes
Is the heaviest part of me