Separations, or The Grim in Four Acts

I waged this war with my shaking hands
For I've sunk broken ships in this toxic waste
Alone in a field with spears grazed at my neck
And an army of men with bows drawn to my head
An enemy I am and a leader I was
With the words that I write now a force of such vigilance
I can't restrain myself from this memory
Strayed and beaten when I considered you the bestest of friends
You've pushed me for all I've had
Scraping for drama with nails like a hawk
But you aimed for my heart while you scoured for the truth
All that I had was a name for you to use
He called himself Jesus and he smelt of sin
So cruel with an ego sewn into his skin
An all-of-a-kind man with a public dream
Of such goals he could achieve if he wasn't such a sleaze
Give me a breakdown
You have nothing to hold over me
I trusted you to be kind
Ghost me back and proclaim me dead
I'm done!

Listen to your heartbeat sync to mine
I'm cutting loose of all I've ever wanted
And I still fought for the rest of my days
Time lost thinking you'll never die
I've never been so cold to you
Listen to your heartbeat sync to mine

I've fought for so long
I lost my mind
In these caves, you dug me out
I'll keep fighting these faces
I'll separate myself from your heroes
I've fought for so long
It's time to share my life
I've fought for so long
I fought so hard

I pray to be a wishful man as I fear in a world of hypocrisies
I beg for the day I can bring myself up from this breathing underground
I first saw him at a distance, he slowly crept his way to me
His wicked interest swallowed me whole
He showed me a version of himself, a nature I related to
And as our years passed by, he was the best I've ever had
And when my father passed, he told me "We'll get through this together,"
"Have you ever encountered death like this before?"
And I said no

I looked to him for advice, he grinned as he spoke in hypocrisies
He twisted words around with an ignorance like I've seen before
I never felt so cold while he made me out to be a villain
He held me back from the world as he engulfed me in his troubled mind
I was at my lowest point and I told him I wanted to leave this place
He said "Your goals aren't right, there are bigger things to prioritize,"
He asked me one last time, "What's it worth to cut me from your life?"
Abandon all that I have worked so hard for
And I screamed no!

I've tried to tell you the truth but you've heard enough
Feed your soul into mine