Sentimental

[Verse]
What's the point of turning back, I'll double down on my mistakes
And what's the point of getting help? I'd rather drown in all this hate
Why would I try to change my life when I could blame it all on fate?
Why would I ever trust a soul when every single one is fake?
Change is an illusion, I've done everything to fix myself
But I'm still stuck with problems that I've had since I was fucking ten
I tried to make an effort, not a single thing has changed since then
I tried to ask for help, it ain't get better when Thet gave me it
Can't do nothing, I feel like my life was predetermined
And it comes down to a point where all my feelings just seem worthless
And it wouldn't really mind if tomorrow if I got murdered
I just wanna be at peace, but why the fuck would I deserve it?