‘SELFRESENTMENT’ is a song by SoundCloud rapper PRXJEK about his self-hatred. He raps about how much he hates himself, how he covers this up with a mask of happiness, and how he loves to hurt himself mentally without leaving physical marks.
[Verse]
I wear this smile on my face to hide where all the pain is
Antisocial, so depressed, I'm stressed, I can't even make friends
My happiness never lasts it all goes away when the day ends
Cursed imperfection
The person in my reflection
I can't stand his face, I hate him
I sever him with this weapon, my pain will lessen
I wish to break him, I can't accept him
This hatred is everlasting
There's more to hear than just rapping
My spirit taken so I'm breaking my heart
With my own hands
That's how I take the problems into my own hands
'Cause the problem is me and no one else, but only I know this
No conveying emotions
Dying inside but I won't show it, never
So listen closely
Carry my body like Mariah
Up to the heavens where we never expire
My mind blank
Surrounded by negative thoughts
I question whether or not I climbed out of hell or from heaven
And dropped
Don't ever be jealous, it's not what I deserve
Hurt me until my life's energy stops
When I leave this earth to rot in the dirt with a centerpiece flow
And my memories become lost
The devil he called me and I answered him
My last breath was the cost
Fuck
[Outro]
The word burden hurts so much
That's why I call myself that
So that I can hurt myself
Without leaving scars on my body
I carve yet another hole into my heart
With these words
My own words
I'm sorry
SELFRESENTMENT was written by PRXJEK.
SELFRESENTMENT was produced by HKFiftyOne.
PRXJEK released SELFRESENTMENT on Thu Jan 19 2017.