SELFISHNESS OF EVIL MEN

[Verse 1]
Where I'm from, it's better than a lot of places
Because at least bodies will get left by dumpsters
Where roaches can look like friends if you smile at the right angles
The right drugs can turn your night into feedback
The wrong girl will ask if she can please you
You tell yourself you don't need that
I'm twenty something, seen more that I'd care to
Watch a grown man shit his own pants
Tell yourself that's your father
Watch a woman collapse and cry on the floor in your lap
Tell yourself that's your mother
She tells herself you're her son
Fuck fun
I got a gun in the closet
Tell myself I don't want this
Crawl out the window like a worm
I'm a loser
But tell the world I won't end 'til I'm winning
Watch a wound weep and never heal
Tell myself where my heart went
See the black dot the apartment
[?] that demon to destruction
Last week the devil in my dream won marriage
Now what the fuck am I supposed to tell him
I'm walking down the block in all black
With my fists like [?]
If I die, don't be mad
Don't forget this
I'm a dad what am I supposed to do different
Step up, fuck off
I'm just beginning

[Chorus]
The big boys always win
Sink or dive into the deep end
Fucker (motherfucker)
Motherfucker (motherfucker)
Now step up, and fuck off
Can't always play it off
Always hurt, Always lost
Always costs

[Verse 2]
My heart it gotta sin (It got to)
Because my mind doesn't bend
Renegade BLACKIE's back again
And this time he ain't making friends
There's no help you can lend
See yourself to the bin
From the help that you get dealt that I felt from within
They say Jesus melts all sins well fucker
I ain't met him
Tell my mother give my name to the wind
Another angry nigga with a pen
With a six hundred sixty six cross their chest [?]
Up in the bed
Just found out
I might have autism
I'm living off [?]
I'm living off [?]
I'm living off my high school girlfriend
I'll be waiting until ten
Gotta learn how to save not spend

[Chorus]
The big boys always win
Sink or dive into the deep end
Fucker (motherfucker)
Motherfucker (motherfucker)
Now step up, and fuck off
Can't always play it off
Always hurt, Always lost
Always costs

[Verse 3]
This is a demon city
Huge and dark and empty
But embrace yourself
Grab your friends, hold 'em close
Fuck it
We sleep in the same bed
Fuck it
Wear the same clothes
Fuck it
Live lives that no one knows
Ok, so fuck it
My only fear you won't understand
Well fuck it
If this is permanent
Then I want more than this
It's just you and me
And the idea of escaping the same plate
What if there's no thing as heaven's gates
Then fuck it
I want more than this if this is permanent
It is possible to be living and not existing

[Chorus]
The big boys always win
Sink or dive into the deep end
Fucker (motherfucker)
Motherfucker (you motherfucker)
Now step up, and fuck off
You can't always play it off
Always hurt, Always lost
Always costs (how you like that shit?)
The big boys always win
Sink or dive into the deep end
Fucker (motherfucker)
To live is to suffer
And to survive is to find meaning in that suffering
Now step up, and fuck off
You can't always play it off
Always hurt, Always lost
Always costs
The big boys always win
Sink or dive into the deep end
Fucker (motherfucker)
Motherfucker