Selfishly Indulgent

Woke up and learned I miss you more than I thought I ever would
I already knew I wanted you in ways that I can’t and that I shouldn’t

Somebody said I’d like to know how it feels to crush her
Then when they did I hid under sheets until the torment was finished
Until the torment was finished

But now I am open
But now I am selfishly indulgent

Driving around I gape at the view
Surprised by the beauty
I wasn’t expecting something so unexpected
To be so easy

I look to my left and you’re looking straight at me
I try to step back but it comes so naturally
Made the first move after telling you not to
So blame it all on me
Yeah blame this all on me

Cause now I am open
Yeah now I am selfishly indulgent
Somehow, no longer broken
I am all the way down, submerging in your ocean

Who I am, now I’m with you
Is someone different, so brand new
Who I was, in the before
Is someone that I now ignore

Who I am, now I’m with you
Is someone different, so brand new
Who I was, in the before
Is someone I don’t recognize anymore
Anymore

Cause now I am open
Yeah now I am selfishly indulgent