Selfish

[Verse 1]
I thought that I'd be fine
Maybe get to know myself
But its hard when the lights all turn off
I feel like I'm living hell
Maybe I just need time
Think I read somewhere that shit helps
But its hard when the lights all turn off
And I run out of my pills

[Verse 2]
But how you doing, how's your mother
Oh I've been worried about her
And are your panic attacks getting easier or harder
Feels like I'm pulling teeth out
The silence, no conversation
Been speaking to myself
I think she thinks I'm going crazy

[Pre Chorus]
Did you get the job you want
You always say you hate your boss
And I know it's selfish
But I hate that you're smiling and I'm not

[Chorus]
And I know its selfish, sеlfish
But I can't help it, help it
And I know its selfish, sеlfish
But I can't help it, help it
And I know its selfish, selfish
But I can't help it, help it
And I know its selfish, selfish
But I can't help it, help it