Selfaware

(I’m self-aware now)

[Verse 1]
Keep it easy, keep it simple
Don’t fuck up the key, fight your convoluted impulse
Numbers in the green, if you do it right they triple
But you’ll never be the stone to make the water ripple

Oh my god, why’d I look at the analytics again
Now I’ve killed my self-esteem and left its blood all on my hands
Hide away in my music scared that no one understands
I’m as soulless as a pop star can get

[Chorus]
I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how

[Verse 2]
(I-I-I-I) I could look up rabies and consider reading scripture
Stuffing up emotions like I hibernate in winter
Seasonal depression turned to annual prescription
One click away, Google search “bipolar symptoms”

Am I better than a ghost without a man to haunt
Cuz I’m really feeling useless like a Smash Bros taunt
Crashing in the wall on my train of thought
Now I’m drifting round in outer space and I can’t say I feel distraught

[Chorus]
I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how

I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how

[Bridge]
And I know things are exactly the same as before
But at least it’s a correctable mistake
And I know it’s not enough to awake in a cold sweat on the floor
Cuz dreams are the worst when you’re awake

[Verse 3]
I pulled another all-nighter (I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now)
This one no different from the rest (Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year)
Cuz every time I think I’ve figured it out, and I’m put to the test (How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out)
I end up back in my bed again (I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how)

[Chorus]
I’m self-aware now, I’m taking care now
Of all the things I’ve yet to finish in this year
How could I be so out of my mind I’d pull my hair out
I’ll pull myself out of my rut but it’s unclear how