self sabotage is the 3rd single leading up to her 2nd EP, “closer to closure” It is also the 7th track of the EP.
[Verse 1]
I'm still checking your location
Imagine our bed with you and her
Still look at pictures when we dated
Now I see a girl that's at her worst
[Pre-Chorus]
My head is underwater
Drowning in my panic attacks
I'm sick of suffocating in my tears
[Chorus]
One day, I'll be stronger
Through all the self-sabotage
Suffering through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on
But in this moment
God, this really hurts like hell
But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led
Led me to myself
[Verse 2]
I finally threw away your sweaters
I'm going out and moving on
In fact, I haven't cried about you in forever
Yeah, forever's but a week of being strong
[Pre-Chorus]
I'm running through the darkness
Trying to get my old self back
I'm sick of suffocating in my tears
[Chorus]
One day, I'll be stronger
Through all the self-sabotage
Suffering through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on
But in this moment
God, this really hurts like hell
But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led
Led me to myself
[Bridge]
Led me to myself
Led me to myself
[Outro]
'Cause I make myself stronger
Through all the self-sabotage
Suffering through my toxic thoughts that I let carry on
But in this moment
God, this really hurts like hell
But I know I'll thank these lonesome nights that led
Led me to myself
self sabotage was written by Nick Ruth & Mikey Ferrari & Lexi Jayde.
self sabotage was produced by Nick Ruth.
Lexi Jayde released self sabotage on Thu Apr 28 2022.
This song is for the people that self-sabotaged themselves after a breakup! It’s okay we all do it, it’s a part of the process. One day you’ll be stronger because of it and look back and laugh at everything that happened. Proud of you for getting through it.
— Lexi Jayde via TikTok (April 2022)