​self pity as a song

I’m feeling better now, got my eyes closed
‘Cause when I look around, I still see your halo
Look at my cup, I drown in red mixed with Faygo
I carry so much cash around, I think I got lumbago
And now I’m ‘bout to cash out, money from sites that they don’t know
I’d put you on if I could but I wanna do this alone
Only notifications is money coming through my phone
Feel my stomach drop when I’m texting you and you change your tone
What did I do wrong?
What did, what did I do wrong?
Self-pity as a song
I can’t speak, I’m way too gone
Don’t wanna speak, you’ll know I’m fucked up
Crush an OC in my cup
Put some oxy in my nose
I feel my body give up, uh
Hypochondriac still on these drugs
Woke up on my front
Face to the ground
I couldn’t see nothing but finally I felt found
Perc knocked me off my axis, upside down, with a smile not a frown
But if I’m upside down, a smile looks like a frown
Slowly giving up but she don’t give a fuck
Got no morals when it comes to jugging people out of love
We ain’t the same, I drop an NBOMe, you getting love bombed
I fell in love with research chemical bonds
While you’re breaking all your bonds
It’s like you do that shit for fun
Brain’s been scrambled
‘Cause of affection that you can’t handle
I’m going all in, got my cards drawn
I’ll play my hand if you just play yours