Self-Loathing

[Intro]
Pouring out my
Pouring out my

[Verse 1: Starlito]
Pouring out my heart
Should've charged up my phone first
Playing outside before I started on my homework
I was in denial of my demons now they growing worse
I should tell the truth thou' I'm knowing that its gone hurt
Hate that I wasted your time
Why I couldn't make up my mind
I even blame me this time If you wanna break up that's fine
Fell asleep siting straight up
Somehow still waking up lying
Hate that I make excuses when truth is I ain't even trying
Hate how I project what I expect but don't reciprocate
Disagree wе in disarray
Then I leave but I wish you'd stay
Making thе same mistakes
I'm impatient but make you wait
I'm ashamed to say looking back on the games I played
Can't relate unless you broke a few hearts at least
Hope for new karma but I know that it starts with me
Still ain't forgave myself
But I take my charge and plea
As a user, guess that makes us both losers
Hate I had to confuse you
Emotionally abuse you
Hopefully you not scorned and it doesn't affect your future
Relationships and I hate that it's comes to talking through records
But I'm blocked I can't even call you directly
I get it I'd prolly cut me off too
Look what I made you do
Sometimes I even hate me too

[Outro: SZA]
Shitty of you to make me feel just like this
What I would do to make you feel just like this