Self Inflicted Wound

[ JkJ Verse 1]
I still be thinkin bout ya, can't delete the pictures
Tryna numb the pain, but its self inflicted
What we had was great, your presence was gifted
I can't even lie I miss it
Its obvious your a part of me forever
These summer days are colder and these winters kinda bitter
Cuz Im on my own, and that ain't where I wanna be
Year later and I still can never find some peace
Strollin as a lifeless drone, people ask why I ain't home
Searching to find a purpose of why Im feeling worthless
Curbed enthusiasm, you'd imagine, Smiles are never permanent
Tryna block the thoughts, until their triggered by certain shit
I know that I ain't perfect, and sometimes I deserve the shit
But I mean this from my soul's depth that Im still learning
And all the hurting and pain, I would go through everyday
Just to have you call my name, and say you love me again
And its, unlikely, the thought still excites me
Questioning myself like did I really do the right thing
Probably not, Im Thinkin, Should Probably stop
Im caught up, Im in my thoughts, Slowly Dying, as you watch

[Hook]
I'm Slowly Dying as you watch,I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying.. And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch

[JkJ Verse 2]
Im big enough to admit to stuff, So no I ain't over shit
I still wanna hit you up, Even if just as friends
You call and Im pickin up, I guess I ain't get enough
Or I just believe in love, Wish I could take it back
Back to the old days, I know the pain I caused, Im mending my old ways, I know that its over, I just can't believe in that
Convinced I can get you back, Don't know what to do exact
Then I come across old messages, of you tellin me Im the best there is, How nobody Ever loved you in the way I did, Girl we almost had a kid
I just wish that you were here, When I need you
You said we're always gon be close and I believed you
How it go from us to other people, Why can't we admit our faults and reconvene
Why I miss you and you're never missing me?

[Hook]
I'm Slowly Dying as you watch,I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch, I'm Slowly Dying.. And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, And Times tickin off the clock, I'm Slowly Dying as you watch