Self Harming

[Verse 1: DeeKay]
They say self harm never hurt less
I got bloody palms
Im a bloody mess
I need you
And I need friends
But i lost it all
Am i at an end?

Yeah stop it
Im hopeless
Im dead with eyes wide open
I need to go
But I’m all alone
With a heart that’s black and broken

I love you
Do i mean it?
Cause how the fuck can i love you girl
When i can’t even love myself
Im fighting demons
Like damn im barely breathing

And all the times i feel alive
It fucks my mental health
When i feel the blade all on my skin
And my heart beat isn’t felt

When i fall apart
My thoughts are dark
My life is in despair
I wanna cry like every night
This life just isn’t fair

[Verse 2: DeeKay]
Yeah im screaming out
I need help
And i need you more than ever
But you looked at me
And then walked away
And that broke me down forever

So i keep a strap up on my waist
And you would think to shoot
But it’s by my side just for the night
So that my brain dies

And everytime a girl look my way
Im feeling so neglected
Like is it me or is it her
So sick of this rejection

I feel sometimes im never right
So i move towards the light
And this red strip all up on my skin
It makes me feel alive

Like how the fuck did it get this way
Will i ever even feel the same
Cause this self harm i feel today
Is a numbing never ending pain