Self Driving Car

Wake up
You're burnin' daylight
You've got some time to kill
Before the flame dies
Not everything's awful
It just is
And not everyone hates you
They just don't really give a shit
And not everyone's miserable
It's just you
And a couple million
Other people too

You told me I stopped breathin'
In my sleep when I stayed over last weekend
And you thought that I was dead
Then I took another breath
And I know that doctor won't help me
He'll just send me to another
And that doctor won't help me
And now he'll say that it's just somethin' in my head
And that's a couple thousand dollars
That I could've spent on pain pills and cigarettes

But that's just the way that it goes
You feel good 'till you (Ah-ah) don't
You find somebody who cares
You pull meaning from fear
You try distractin' yourself
You find the stash you forgot
All the money runs out
You find yourself a new job

But I don't wanna run the numbers
I just wanna run
And I don't wanna waste the hours
That I could see the sun
Sittin' inside
Clutchin' my chest
Shrinkin' my lungs
Wastin' my drawn out death
No, I just wanna run

You cried on the phone
I cried when I hung up
And I wish I could hide from the truth
No, every time I tried it to
I imagined how it was
When I did anythin' other than
Holdin' out 'till the next check
And savin' up
I know you think that I'm bearin' your weight
I can't even carry myself
We're just crawlin' together
Sayin', "In the morning, we'll feel better"

But every day I suffocate slowly
Wake up feelin' nauseous
It gets a little harder
I'll die in a self-drivin' car crash
In a city underwater
Everybody's goin' all gas
But I don't wanna hold out
I just wanna toss it
It's gettin' harder to see ahead
Things are bloomin' when they should be dead
It's gettin' harder to hit the brakes
The pedal's movin' further away