Self Destruction

Wishing you well
Even though you're with someone else
And nothing but the numbness helps
When there's nothing to do
Stuck in my room with these thoughts of you
Wishing you well
Even though now you're someone else
Couldn't tell you how it felt
How much it hurts seeing you
So different now its what distance will do

Every second awake
Every step that I take is another one back
Hoping one day you'll ask if I'm okay
I'll tell you everything if you care to know
What its like in this hell
Hoping you're doing well
So numb I cannot feel anything but this guilt inside of me
Blame myself for things I can't change all because of you
I love the way that you fucked me
Hate every something that we could have been
Again and again and again and again
Why can't you just love me for who I am
Why am I always so fucking upset
All of my pain and my love is the same
It comes from a place with no one else to blame
Other than me its all self inflected
Wounds that bleed inside and no one can see
Self destruction is such a beautiful thing
How does it feel to watch me suffering
How does it feel to watch me suffering while I'm

Wishing you well
Even though you're with someone else
And nothing but the numbness helps
When there nothing to do
Stuck in my room with these thoughts of you
Wishing you well
Even though now you're someone else
Couldn't tell you how it felt
How much it hurts seeing you
So different now its what distance will do

Baby I'm wishing you well
Scratching the walls in my cell
The clarity rings like a bell
If only I could say farewell
To the winds that carry me
And to the shadows that follow me
They will treat you well
Don't forget to carry me
In your heart
Feed my body to my enemies

Wishing you well
Even though you're with someone else
And nothing but the numbness helps
When there nothing to do
Stuck in my room with these thoughts of you
Wishing you well
Even though now you're someone else
Couldn't tell you how it felt
How much it hurts seeing you
So different now its what distance will do