​​self antagonism

[Intro]
Bitch, we up (NT, NT, NT, NT)
Came in this shit out the mud
Yeah, I been dealing with tough luck
Nobody's saying enough
Freeze in the dark, man, I'm fucked up
Hoping I'll never see none
Trigger finger don't got patience
Think I might've jumped the gun

[Hook]
Bitch, we up
Came in this shit out the mud
Yeah, I been dealing with tough luck
Nobody's saying enough
Freeze in the dark, man, I'm fucked up
Hoping I'll never see none
Trigger finger don't got patience
Think I might've jumped the gun (Not having fun)
Bitch, you are dead to me
I'm not gonna buy what you're sеlling me
I'm my number one еnemy
I don't even think my friends can see
I'm taking care, gotta fend for me
Hiding myself, an anemone
I'm taking care, gotta fend for me
The melatonin's just to cope with me, can't go to sleep

[Verse]
I need the truth
I put myself in the pocket
I ran for a pick-6, then I fumbled
Man, I saw the end, but I lost it
Antagonize myself every time I fail
'Cause who else could've caused this?
I'm my number one enemy, like
Don't know how they fell for me
Pressure almost turned me to steel
Cracked under it, true colors revealed
Wish I wasn't under its heel
Coping with stress, I didn't know how to deal
Overdosing on that serotonin
But it wasn't motive
Made me crash in the end
I got rid of my melatonin
Staring at the ceiling
'Til the morning
I stayed in my bed, but fuck it, I'm gone

[Hook]
Bitch, we up
Came in this shit out the mud
Yeah, I been dealing with tough luck
Nobody's saying enough
Freeze in the dark, man, I'm fucked up
Hoping I'll never see none
Trigger finger don't got patience
Think I might've jumped the gun (Not having fun)
Bitch, you are dead to me
I'm not gonna buy what you're selling me
I'm my number one enemy
I don't even think my friends can see
I'm taking care, gotta fend for me
Hiding myself, an anemone
I'm taking care, gotta fend for me
The melatonin's just to cope with me, can't go to sleep

[Bridge]
Can't go to sleep
Can't go to sleep
NT, NT, NT, NT

[Verse 2]
Forgot what it's like to feel
Cameras off when the curtains revealed
Had no proof I wasn't made of steel, man
Don't know how I can ever feel real
My number one enemy is me
I never have time to kill
I'm too busy beating myself up
Mentally bruised, but I'll do it still
Forgot what it's like to feel
Cameras off when the curtains revealed
Had no proof I wasn't made of steel, man
Don't know how I can ever feel real
My number one enemy is me
I never have time to kill
I'm too busy beating myself up
Mentally bruised, but I'll do it still