Seeing you far hurts me

Now I'm sitting
In the bed that we share
Thinking how we got to this
Can we overcome it?
Cigar in hand
Will I be able to see you again?
I miss you how winters miss flowers
Can I hold your hand once more?
And you always knew
You always knew you were my priority
You were my inspiration
You were my breath and you were more than half of my soul
You were my inspiration
But now you left and I stayed in the dark
Will you light my nights like you did before?
Will you light my days with your caresses?
You were my inspiration
But now you've left
Will you wait for me sitting on the piano like you did when we started this adventure?
And I will not cry for you darling because I do not have tears anymore to cry
Can I hold your hand once more?
And you always knew
You always knew you were my priority
You were my inspiration
You were my breath and you were more than half of my soul
You were my inspiration
But now you left and I stayed in the dark
You were more than half of my soul
Cigars are now my inspiration
The letters you write will always be present in each letter, each word
I sink and fall
I fall and break
But nobody is able to see my broken heart
Being with him hurts me
Thinking about you hurts me
Seeing you next to him hurts me
Kissing hurts me
Seeing you laugh in every interview hurts me
Can you even see it?
I tried to get away from them so you would not suffer
I tried to get away
I knew that they would take us away
I am broke
I'm screaming because even the pillows are still with your perfume
You will remember me?
Your memory hurts me
Seeing you happy hurts me
Have it to the duel
I want to scream
I want to free myself from them
I need to free myself from those who control us