Season Finale

I wish that I wasn’t numb to all my feelings until I reach for a new bottle
You spelled out my love but there’s isn’t a point cause there is no you inside tomorrow
And I would be in debt forever if in this life I had some time I could borrow
I’d rather drown inside the rain than swim through the ocean of all of my sorrows

And I just hope that you know I really changed
My days do not feel the same
I'm tired of living with pain
Yeah, I'm tired of living with pain

I just hope that I get to see your face before I dip out and live forever in Cali
And since my life is just a manic episode I wait for my season finale
I believe that you want me to be happy
Just never believe that you want that with you
Wish I could open your heart just to see how you felt and read all your truths

I expose all of mine through these lyrics the fans have been messaging they know me better than me
They tell me do not be afraid of my future and what is my reality
But I would be lying if I said I would be okay if I lose you for good
But I would be lying if I said I would be okay if I lose you for good

I hope that you notice
I hope that you need me
Before it all falls apart
Before it all falls apart

I hope that you notice
I hope that you need me
Before it all falls apart
Before it all falls apart

I have been praying and dreaming that I wake up next to you
I wake up every day and get depressed
I walk around aimlessly I just sit around my house and I hardly get dressed
I fight with these thoughts in my head
'til I hardly know whats really good for me hope I'm not better off dead
I know that my friends love me dearly fans say I’m the best but its bringing more stress

I just need time to find out who I am
I just need you in my life that’s the plan
It gets to the point I feel bad for my dog
Cause I do not know how to take a day off

There is guilt in my heart for killing all my sadness
Not actions alone but the job had felt tragic
And maybe I just live inside of my past
Been an issue for us I don’t know how to act

I lost myself trying to please everyone else
Lost everyone when I tried to find myself
It gets to the point I feel bad for my dog
Cause I do not know how to take a day off

And knowing I can’t have you back is the worst
Just say there's a chance you can lie if it works
Before I lose everything, know how I’m feeling
It's the best that I got and I hope you can see it

I hope that you notice
I hope that you need me
Before it all falls apart
Before it all falls apart

I hope that you notice
I hope that you need me
Before it all falls apart
Before it all falls apart

Before it all falls apart, Yeah, mmm...