Searching

I’m searching for different reasons and meanings
But nothing i can do to seize what i’m feeling
It's tearing me down till im begging and beating
On God’s door to take me in now i am leaving
I dont wanna stay
Do not wanna see just what i could make out of one other day
If i put it all on the line, put it at stake
Na fuck that ima just waste away

Ready to go. empty my soul
Nothing is left for me here anymore
And take it away i do not want to grow
This is the mind of a fool, Not my own
I suppose, that i’ve been here before
You relating to me, well i'm relating some more
Just relaying the speech and then it's taking its course
While i sit back backwood sparkin on the porch

I dont need no one in my life
Listen in, cuz i dont really wanna say it twice
But sometimes it would be so nice
Someone to spend some time
With a similar mind that i can delve inside
But in this hell that’s vivid i can't seem to find
Anyone that's living to compete with my mind
Swear they thinking that i'm crazy really i dont even mind
I dont even got the time, hold it down for me and mine

So if you want what i got
You can come up to me
Put it down on the spot
Eyes lock. You drop
Premeditated this just what i thought
Now you are nothing and i stand on top
Defeating the game and then swallowed the lock
Consciiious