Screaming Into My Pillow

Yo
Suicide is real
I know it is joked about but it is no joke
It ain't funny when someone uses suicide to escape their pain
To find their freedom
What if it were someone you loved

Screaming into my pillow all night long
I know I pretend, but I'm not strong
All these people, they ain't wrong
They are right, I don't belong
I wish we would all get along
Can you just listen to my song

Yeah, uh
Suicide is seeming like my only option
I don't fit it, I'm sinking to the bottom
Will they help me up or have I been forgotten
Look around evеryone, it seems I'm the only problem
Keepin' it in, it ain't that uncommon
Hiding my еmotions 'cos it's too late, yeah I have already fallen
They way people getting treated now, it is rotten
So rotten that it's making me feel so low
I don't get the point, do I have one, no
Sam committed suicide, feels like a day ago
In reality almost four years, but the time don't slow
It don't slow so I'mma just end it
No point waiting around, I've fucked up my relationship
Didn't want for us to end, it's my fault, I admit it
Just please know that my love for you will always be legit
You probably don't wanna talk so I'll leave you in peace
My bros already told me they don't want no nephew or niece
My hopes of making a fam with the girl of my dreams
That'll stay in my mind, oh you say we're just teens
Well lemme tell you about this teen

Screaming into my pillow all night long
I know I pretend, but I'm not strong
All these people, they ain't wrong
They are right, I don't belong
I wish we would all get along
Can you just listen to my song

I'm not a happy person
Always feeling depressed
But I cover it up
'Cos I don't want you to be stressed
Can we all just get along, be civil
Can we all just get along, be civil
Can we all just get along, be civil
Get, get, get along, be civil

Look
I screwed up, she is the one
Now I've messed up, lost the fun
All the I love you more arguments I won
They are true and no we're done
But I beg, can we try again soon
Right now I'm talking to the man on the moon
I hope that we will be together soon
I'll wait the day, the morning, night and noon
I keep tryin' to get hold of her
I can't see ahead, my vision's a blur
My mind feels so wrong, absurd
On my mind, what's this curse
I'mma explore with this verse
I'm sorry that I caused this damage
Over my thoughts, need a bandage
Put 'em in their place 'cos they takin' advantage
Of my situation, I can't cope or manage

Screaming into my pillow all night long
I know I pretend, but I'm not strong
All these people, they ain't wrong
They are right, I don't belong
I wish we would all get along
Can you just listen to my song

I'm not a happy person
Always feeling depressed
But I cover it up
'Cos I don't want you to be stressed
Can we all just get along, be civil
Can we all just get along, be civil
Can we all just get along, be civil
Get, get, get along, be civil

In my head, I hear a demon
He's pulling me towards freedom
Honestly, I just wanna be Freeman
I'm depressed, what's my reason
I don't know, maybe treason
Live my life by the season

I'm screaming into my pillow all night long
I always pretend that I am strong
I know them bullies are not wrong
In this world, no, I don't belong
Can we try to get along
And did you listen to my song