Scatterbrain

There's a voice stuck inside of my head
My skin itches, pay attention
I should listen but I'm focused on this tapping pencil
Sounding off like a jackhammer crushing concrete
I see me breaking his hand so I can freely advance
I'm at a distance so far into my thoughts
That I become malevolent over horizons that I've crossed
My skin itches but I'm focused on how I notice
The room is getting colder
Now a vision takes over
Remember the morning of that gun sound
When I ran but they still took me down to the ground
I snap back to reality only to question my sanity
And how to tie these lies to my veracity
How can I have audacity to lie so quick?
I moved around growing up and said bye so swift
I capsize into a pit of memories and recollections
I'm hoping that I'm dead when I forget them

I blacked out now there's blood on my fingertips
From sinking into my skin
Cause I'm trying to break within
And I'll die if I have to live
When I know that I have a grin
On my face when I'm 'bout to sin
I'm as dark as I ever been
And I'm hoping that I can win
Against everything in the wind
Cause I'm coping to apprehend
All that might begin near the end
When I'm open to stretching so much my body overextends
To ascend.....Let's begin