Scarlett

{Rivilin]

I know anxiety lives in me
If I stay here will I lose my mind?
I think I've already passed that time
Plagued by derealization
Feel like I'm looking through a fucking glass
Feel like this ain't my body
I'm just in a dream, will death wake me up?

These drugs, no, they don't mean shit
When this body doesn't feel even real
Can't keep up a fucking job
It feels like I'm just blessed with bad luck
Try to explain it to someone
But they don't understand
Like why can't I be normal
For a second so I can feel human?

My body on this cold concrete
No furniture fucking around
Convinced these shadows on the walls
Are out for me 'till I'm in the ground
Take a step back
I'd like to realize that I'm okay
It's just my perspective
Cause it feels like I'm living in my skull
Like nothing is real
And this is all a dream

'Till I take my life and I wake up
Maybe then I'll be happy in this place
My psychologist doesn't get it
No amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that I'm okay
That I'm just going through a rough patch
This my reality
I'll fake a smile and say that I'm fine

Floating above the city
If I let go will I suddenly fall
Then can I wake up?
To me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself
Suicide's not enough

There's a constant battle in me
Gravity has given in
Hear the wind roaring as I collide
With the concrete end it quickly
My eyes snap open
Breath heavy
Every time I die I wake up

[CoaastGxd]

Every time I die I wake up
Every time I die I

This time
I'm just fine, running away
And I'd sell my soul
Just to better the days
I never get a hold of this, I throw it away
I never know what to say
I make the same old mistakes

I been playing in traffic with my emotions
And I'm closer to a rope
Then I been in a fucking minute, oh
Every time I think I'm getting better
I end up fucking [?]
Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning, though

Can't sleep and I can't wake up
Life's tough
I get a helmet and shit man up
I been stuck
And I'm spinning my tires up in the mud
Going nowhere fast
The air floating over the sun

[Rivilin]

My body on this cold concrete
No furniture fucking around
Convinced these shadows on the walls
Are out for me 'till I'm in the ground
Take a step back
I'd like to realize that I'm okay
It's just my perspective
Cause it feels like I'm living in my skull
Like nothing is real
And this is all a dream

'Till I take my life and I wake up
Maybe then I'll be happy in this place
My psychologist doesn't get it
No amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that I'm okay
That I'm just going through a rough patch
This my reality
I'll fake a smile and say that I'm fine

Floating above the city
If I let go will I suddenly fall
Then can I wake up?
To me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself
Suicide's not enough

There's a constant battle in me
Gravity has given in
Hear the wind roaring as I collide
With the concrete end it quickly
My eyes snap open
Breath heavy
Every time I die I wake up