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I got
A part of me broken
I’m guarding myself
From the scars I’m exposing
Harder to feel I’m at peace
With My heart in the open
Harder to breathe
Through the sparks of weed
But it’s help
When i harbor commotion
As a Spartan
I need to be hard as can be
But it hurts
To discard my emotions
Pressed for the bottle that caught
The tears off me quietly
Fear of sobriety
Years of the tyranny
Clear as a day with no thunder
Here I am tryna be
The calm before the storm
I’m constantly at war
I stand for me dеnying blame
But never lеarn to build
Understandably while hiding pain
I never learn to heal
With
The phantom of my lies
Will haunt my brain until revealed
And until my bed is made
I’ll spend these days
With waves of guilt
From the
Pit of confinement
I could see the spots of truth
By just
Digging through my dirt
You’ll see a heap of toxic roots
See the purity is gone
And Insecurity run loose
With every issue that arises
It’s get buried in excuse
Inside my soul
I pray my body don’t turn cold
Before i learn to face my problems
I pray someday I gain control
Take me as i am
I been flawed
Hold my hand
Don’t let me fall
I been scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life
Scared of commitment
Scared that these women
Might destroy the inner wiring
Of our future
In this shared existence
Scared of addiction
Scared that my usage
And abuses in my plight
Could send me right back
To my doomed position
Scared of decisions
Scared that the
Pressures that consumes
Me in the night
Gon push this knife
End my truth
This instant
Scared of assistance
Scared that me asking you for help
Gon show my weaknesses
While my pride
Gon make me move against it
I wear this mask out daily
I keep my feelings silent
I scream to show my strength
I don’t like being violent
I hate that fact I’m hardened
Can’t even get emotional
Don’t try open up to me
I’m just gon fucking ghost you
Don’t say you proud of me
That’s just gon jam me up
If it start crying
Do that mean I’m still not man enough
And All this time
My pain rejected all the years
Was just an effort to find greatness
And acceptance amongst my peers
Take me as i am
I been flawed
Hold my hand
Don’t let me fall
I been scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared for my whole life
Scared, scared for my whole life
Scared that
Scared of affection
You say that we should be together
But i mess round with these hoes
Cause you not leaving me
Scared of acceptance
My family passing and I’m Acting
Like they death ain’t even phase me
As of recently
Scared of progression
Knowing that growth
Can being uncomfortable
I choose to stay as stagnant
As i need to be
Scared of the questions
That could dispel the waves
Of trauma in my body
That’s been warring
With my frequently
Due to the fear
I try perpetuating strength
In hopes it’s mask away the weakness
That’s been desecrating since
And with God
Who barely speak
Scared of the distance
I watch you grow out of yo trauma
Scared of progression
Scared of
Scared of distance
Cathartic explosions
I’ve guarded myself from
The harbored commotion
Harder to feel I’m at ease
With my heart in the open
Harder to breathe
In a garden of weeds
Let alone
Lead my heart w/ emotion
If the scars on my seams
Get to large in my Genes
Then my seeds
Will be barred with necrosis
Death to the bottle
The caught the tears off me quietly
Fear of sobriety
Year of the Tyranny
Clear as day with no Thunder
Here am I’m tryna to be
The Calm before the storm
My momma as warned
That the man who
Stands behind his shame
Is thrown beneath the blade
That man who tries denying pain
Is lonely and afraid
The phantom of my Iris
Is ghost from which i came
I descended from a violence
Mixed with hopelessness and rage
From the pit of my confinement
Im bequeathed a flash of signs
Through the Easel of my paintings
Grew a Cistine chapel mind
Writing 16’s in my momma house
Since 15 all this time
Was the closest shit to freedom
From these demons that reside
Inside my
Soul
I pray my body
Don’t turn cold
I hope learn
To face my problems
I pray i never lose control
Take me as I am
Cause i been flawed
Hold my hand
Don’t let me fall
I been scared
For my whole life
Scared was written by Chris Patrick & Romel Moore & Ro Marsalis.
Scared was produced by Ro Marsalis.
Chris Patrick released Scared on Wed Aug 10 2022.