Scared and impermanent

Letting go of the wheel
On that midnight drive
Scared and impermanent

Snow knee high
Thought i might not survive
Scared and impermanent

Letting go of your hands
Ground me to dust with your hips
Scared and impermanent

Drunk and lost on that dock
Woke with ash on my lips
Scared and impermanent

Whats the alternative
Books are no therapists
The world is hilarious
But i'm fucking scared of it

Trying to sleep outside
After our iceland fight
Scared and impermanent

You were gone in the morning
Hiked until i cried
Scared and impermanent

All those art shows high
Those nights where i could have died
Scared and impermanent

Now got this arts degree
Three mice and love i need
Scared and impermanent

What’s the alternative
Is nothing definitive
The world is hilarious
When you wash your hands of it

Perhaps my soul has grown possessive
Of this shell i've made a mess of
I want to make sense of the senseless
And wake up with love that i've dreamt of

My friends are leaving home
Say it’s the weather and dead scene
I'm sick of hearing it

My friends are slitting their wrists
Say it's the meds and their dead dreams
I'm sick of hearing it

My friends are pairing off
Say "it gets better past your twenties"
I'm sick of hearing it

My friends are shouting past each other
About the movies and traffic
I'm getting delirious

The world is hilarious
When you're done respecting it
The world is too serious
And i'm sick of hearing it

I’m looking for better fits
A job with some benefits
Songs with more sentiment
A lover with sharper wit

I want to be over it
Being scared and impermanent
But that’s what they sold me
Feeling scared and impermanent

I've sipped coffee watching
People fight over game scores
Stepped in on a mugging
Broke onto rooftops in kotor

No matter how much time i’m given
It still hasn't feel like living

Empirically breathing
Is that all
No
I'm not so sure