Sanity

[Verse 1]
On the verge of insanity I'm losin my mind I gotta get away so I can get my head clear Overwhelmed by the feelin of death its kind of hard to feel alive when everything is dead here
I gotta get reinvigorated yes it has been awaited so anyone who hated is obliterated
When I hit you with an evil play then bitch I get titillated and feeling less jagged like I generated
Electricity flowin through my veins
It really helps out when I'm going though a thang
I'm knowing youre a lame and I'm showin you the pain
It's survival of the fittest gotta grow a new attain
Who knew level the recognitions of you but im checkin this one because I got a new itinerary
If you step into my mind you can learn the psychology of a mad man know that I been a very
Bad boy but motherfucker ditty and biggie is insidious it's like I never had joy
I know my attitudes as shitty as the witty is gritty is never coming with a pencil and a pad toy
Im a motherfuckin man on the edge
Lookin at the world while I stand on a ledge
I don't wanna let em get the best of me I'm about to fly like a bird then land on my head
Feelin like I'm trapped and I'm sick of the cage
Closin and im goin and im lookin for rage
Feelin like im turning more wicked and crazed
Change a chapter like flick of the page
God and the devil are battling for my bind and I'm sittin here waitin for my brain to swell
Feelin like I'm floatin on clouds but at the same time standing being burnt by the flames of hell
What in the hell of a need for redemption
Listen to the devilish deeds that we mention
Even when I was a little kid in elementary the teacher would be yelling at me and detention
I seen a light at the end of the tunnel but I get pulled from the back into the darkness daily
We're just pieces in the game if life but ill be damned if I ever let a motherfucker play me

[Chorus]
I'm trying to keep my sanity
But this wicked world has badly damaged me

[Verse 2]
Will I forever be trapped in the middle of a never ending battle as a lost soul
Searchin for heaven but I could only find hell and everytime I take a turn I'm at a crossroads
I think it was an evil seed inside of my cerebellum I try to tell em that I need to get a lobatomy
Because I keep on hearin all the demons inside of me if I find out where the devil lives I can now rip out of me
I gotta get focus and I gotta rebuke all the evil that the devil brings my way
Cause right now my souls on cruise control drivin like a bat outta hell down hell's highway
Gotta find a piece of my sober release the nine millimeter rounds right at you
Know that the inner peace of mind never will cease to grind and it's cause I downright have to
Make money to give up my kids need
Plus I also suffer from irrelative greed
I gotta keep it movin I guess if I did speed
I'm tryna get ahead in and have me a big lead
Off a monetary gang so I gotta carry thangs that'll leave a lot of exit wounds
And I gotta get a quickie know my time is of the essence they will cut off my electric soon
I will make ? every decision is a product of my own ingenuity
If you really wanna do the world a favor then will you see me do a run up and then try to put two in me
Cause I'm a ball of negative energy and I put a dark cloud over anyone near me
Then I drink till my vision gets blurred cause it is the only time that I can think clearly
But as soon as it's all backed up then the devil will be tellin me to commit a felony
Indulge in infidelity you use my virility and abilities but then I sit and have a soliloquy
Talk to myself like I try to figure what the hell is goin on I gotta get a grip on reality
I got a "wish a motherfucker would" mentality cause I wish a motherfucker would try to come battle me
I got a blood lust stare at the huns a part of me sinkin teeth in the arteries for the blood rush
Gotcha girl and I fuckin her then I go for the jugular cum in her then I'm done with her when the blood gush
So you better watch out when you see me
Cause I'm not your average rapper from the T.V
I'm a real life motherfucker livin in the gutter and it's not glamorous to be me