Sadtimes

Ever since I started my goal was in plain view
Write the illest shit I could come up with
And never do what they do
Stay true and put my all in every single verse
Scrutinize every line, bar, syllable and verse
Striving for perfection couldn't write a rhyme in 5 minutes
If I did it I wouldn't be satisfied with it
I'm my worst critic
It's got to be impeccable
If someone else could have wrote it how am I exceptional?
Not just another spitter I got what they lack
Got to keep up with the times and ahead of the pack
I use to hate every track leaving my sessions pissed
Why'd I say that like that when I could have said it like this?
Then the flow could have flipped could have taken a breath
Hindsight's a mother fucker and I'm plotting on his death
Trying to get everything right the first time
Which is why every rhyme is memorized by the time I write the last line
I take my time with every letters curved
I feel if you're checking for me that's what you deserve
If I give anything less I feel like I was dissing you
I'm giving you what I expect from dudes I listen to
This simple truth is people don't even care
It's like they're lost feeling passion through the speaker is rare
The music's in the air but its hearts not beating
I'm alone trying to resuscitate it but I can't help feeling like

Maybe there'll come a time when I won't be sad and lonely
Maybe there'll come a time when I won't be sad and lonely

I'm not trying to keep it alive just for me
I'm doing it for you and anybody else whose like me
If you like me than most likely you know the truth
Is if I leave no one like me will hit the booth
And its frightening because apparently
I'm the only one upholding what I thought was important while I was growing up
I guess I was (confused)
For believing there were other emcees such as myself I could believe in
I feel like leaving it all alone but if I do don't try to convince me otherwise I've got my reasons
It used to be that not anybody can spit I mean they still can't but we'll get to that in a bit
The simple shit started to sell cause people could rap along
Giving them the impression that this ain't difficult at all
That's what they want to hear so that's what the label signs
Now everything is so simple everyone thinks they can rhyme
And it seems like with some gun talk and a couple punch lines
They're guaranteed a spot on the dotted line
What I'm trying to express with the rhyme
Are my principles views and values and why it's so critical
That we take pride in our writing
With my poetry I make sure if I'm on a track with 20 cats you notice me
Standards are different this I do know
Know this though words ain't shit without flow
Flow can't fluctuate without wordplay
And don't try to play with words without breathe control
No way
It won't work you have to refine every aspect
So you're not lacking practice creates the total package
Little homie you're (confused)
If you think I won't protect this with my life or expose your shame with the ink
In the blink of an eye I could be gone or broken
I feel alone in my cause but I just can't help hoping that

Maybe there'll come a time when I won't be sad and lonely
Maybe there'll come a time when I won't be sad and lonely

Man I even hate thinking about this shit
I hate talking about it
They got shit twisted
Hip-Hop is done for real
It's up to real motherfuckers to hold it down
And keep it a true culture man
If you think hip-hop is garbage and its so fucked up the way it is right now
You know these young kids are eating it up, right?
How do you think they are going to translate it when they start doing hip-hop later on?
Like the kids that are 10 years old now and they're hearing all this bullshit that's being played
To them this is real hip-hop cause this is what they are being taught
So when they start to translate it they start creating hip-hop on their own its going to be worse than that