Sad Thrills

[Verse 1: Charlie Bett]
It was Friday, August 3rd, 2018
It's the day he passed away, the night he couldn't live to see
So what led up to it is the question they ask me
It’s a long story, if you read it then you'd know what I mean
So my dads stuck in rehab cause he had an alcohol addiction
Nearly his entire life it started from one bad decision
I was wishin' it was fiction when he told me bout his condition
There was nothing I could do but dad just know that you’re forgiven
So he went off to get the help that he was needing
And a week before the third is the day that he was leaving
By now, It’s been a couple months since I have last seen him
So excited for him to see me I’ll never forget that feeling
That night I looked at the stars hoping everything goes right
And me and mom hopped in the car once we saw the sunrise
When I saw him, he told me he loved me never thought it’d be the last time
I told him that I loved him too two tears filled his eyes, Sad Thrills

[Chorus: Sample]
Your love is so divine
It lifts me to paradise
Brings me to higher highs
Takes me into the sunshine

[Verse 2: Charlie Bett]
On the way back I said I missed him so much that I’d never leave him alone
He told me he missed me more but he couldn’t wait to get home
But I couldn’t help but notice that his tone sounded different
He sounded sad and weak but it was too insignificant
Like is it too late for hope, Well It might be for a while
I tried telling him some jokes, But he couldn’t even smile
Momma dropped me off at his place just to spend some time with him
She was gon' make me go home but she knew how much I missed him
He told me he'd never drink again, which was News to me
We spent hours talking and laughing just like how it used to be
He made us dinner, I was so happy he was home again
And whenever I heard his voice it felt like I was 8 years old again
We took a ride around the old neighborhood reminiscing
Noticing how different things are since the beginning
My dad loved to entertain, he used to do it for a living
We used to have a family, now all of its disappearing
He mention he's going through a lot of pain I was surprised
Like you get out of rehab a couple hours ago right?
He said "it still feels like I'm just trapped inside
It was like a jail cell". I said "Don't worry you’ll be fine"
"Listen Charlie just kill me if I ever get the nerve to
Ever try to harm your mom or if I try to Hurt you"
I told him "You're talking crazy" I tell him "What do you mean"
He said "These thoughts can lead to actions that I don’t want you to see"
"But these thoughts don’t exist, how bad is it?"
"You’d have trouble understanding it
I've had a couple issues if I tell you won’t handle it
Excruciating pain it’s too much to explain
I don’t want to hurt you Charlie don’t worry bout me ill remain
Fine, right? just like you told me
He started to cry
I told him "Shit, I'm here for you, call me any time"
He told me "It's getting late", he teared up telling me goodbye
It told him ill see him soon two tears fell from his eyes, sad thrills

[Chorus: Sample]
Your love is so divine
It lifts me to paradise
Brings me to higher highs
Takes me into the sunshine

[Verse 3: Charlie Bett]
He dropped me off back home that day, last ride I got from my father
Its been a couple days since dad and I saw each other
Recently mom and dad were hanging out like when I was younger
Seemed like things were getting better, but I just sat back and wondered
Why he wasn't smiling often
He texted me bout pills he's popping
Meant to stop his depression, but it seemed like it was causing
Him some more pain, he took several a day
They had different effects on him he said it drove him insane
Like one would make him fall asleep, afraid he'd never wake up
And one would make him stay awake but feel like he can't escape the
Pain that he was going through, these pills were contradictory
And man if he was drinking while taking them he'd be history
But it didn't matter back then never thought I'd misconstrue it
Back then daddy always found a way to get through it
So I had hope for his future even though I never knew it
Till it solidified itself, guess I should dive into it
8 am I woke up I saw a text from my dad and I was sure that
Maybe something was off so I tried to ignore it
It read "I want you to have a great life", seemed a lil morbid
But it meant so much to me, I never got to thank him for it
At the time I took it normally and just went on with my day
Talking with my friends was my habit to take my stress away
I was in the middle of a call and everything seemed ok
But I heard someone banging on my door and then I heard 'em say
"It’s an emergency" (emergency), it didn’t sound like my mom and
It was a woman and some cops next to her and they wanted
Me to leave the house I just walked with them and I pondered
What’s going on, I asked her "what was wrong", she never responded
They took me dads place, I saw my momma on the steps and
I ran to her, I had a feeling something happened
I whispered to her, “is he alive”, its too absurd to mention
Two tears fell from her eyes, I got the answer to my question
Sad thrills

[Interview: George Bettinger]
I love being able to bring laughter to the greatest generation of the word
And that's this generation! (absolutely is)

[Chorus: Sample]
Your love is so divine
It lifts me to paradise
Brings me to higher highs
Takes me into the sunshine