Rush

[Intro]
(Ooh-uh)
(Uh, MJ)

[Verse 1]
Think about my life, have me fucked up
What it could have been, in the night, think about what if I cuffed up?
All these proper thoughts, they really tryna rush love
Shawty hold my hand, I don't really wanna rush, love
Hush, hush, why you wanna air in public?
Got thirty-thousand women on my phone, I hit discover
Rather keep it under covers, I don't wanna get exposed and
2016, I was bumpin' Drake, it's a motion
Nowadays, people quit to judgy, use emotions
I'd rather sit in peace, hear my thoughts and get to flowin'
This meditative state have me spittin' out like poets
I don't know it, so I gotta seek it out and find a quotient
Put these thoughts for myself, I don't really wanna quote shit
All these laughs around the world taught me they don't really know shit
Stab me in my back, through the spine, feel the focus (Ayy)
I'm just gettin' started with this rap shit, I promise
"I'm sorry, Mom," all the shit I said when I was fuckin' gone
Didn't mean to go and lose my head, proceed to say it, run
Learned that I can't take it back, but I put pain 'side the saddy suns
I don't care for global fame, my hopes will help when dead and gone
I can't feel no shit that I be worth inside a normal life
I can speak to you, but I just wish I took my own advice
Look inside the mirror, insecurity my only vice
Guess that (MJ) I'm a man, so I can't ask that girl to hold me tight
Fuck it, for this only night, shawty, would you hold me?
And they say, "A human dying twice for this life," be my only
Funny how they quick to judge your body 'fore they get to know you
Funny how the brand will hold the power and the heart and motion
And if you deviate from algorithms, then you lost the ocean
Fuck it, I'ma go and learn to rap and I be chillin', coastin'
Can't stay alone inside with all my thoughts or I gon' hit psychosis
Shawty, calm it down, off the drug, she gon' hit miosis
Open eyes

[Verse 2]
What the fuck I'm doing wit' my time? Wastin' it on internet
I can't feel touch when I'm online
The reason I can't cuff you, I don't trust you, I don't fuckin' lie
Confrontation (Ayy) really 'bout a spoke straight up to my eyes
I'm a classic man, but don't believe it, tell it, jit, design
They don't read the studies, but they argue when it double time
Brodie, you a fuckin' pawn, I can't respect what you be on
Money ain't the only way, and fuck a bitch's Louboutin
I fuck these bitches anyway, I'm cryin' when I'm movin' on
And we just really can't be friends, I'm prolly not what you been on
Ideas could divide us that we shootin' on
You ever think the shit, that, you a war shit, if it's something that is slightly wrong?

[Outro]
I know I got some spite in song, had to get it off my chest
I spent so much time pentin' up and I just can't forget
Is my life really just a last, something greater, next?
I just realized (MJ) I cannot let these words sittin' neck