I don’t love myself
Really hate this skin(yeah)
It’s hard to admit but i gotta commit ‘fore I break this pen
No one even knows of the place I’m in
Or how dark all these days have been
I just keep it all deep inside
I drink and drive then pray again
For some time I been on my own writing songs in the dark alone
About how I’m for from home even though I’m home
It’s all unkown
I call on god then he calls my mom
And she calls me like Mark what’s wrong
Said I’m fine she said quit lyin’
I know you been drinkin’ all night long
Didn’t admit that I been cryin’
I been sippin’ I been dyin’
I been ugh
Tryna find peace
Tryna find me I don’t know who I am
I don’t know what my purpose is
Or why my brain resurfaced this
I poor my drink then go to sleep
Cause the more I think the worse it gets
I just needa go somewhere for and I’ll be okay
I don’t need your help I’ll do this shit but in my own way
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)
Even if I try my very best you know I can’t stay
All I do is run and I’ll be runnin’ ‘til my last days
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)
I run from love but I run to pain
It sucks cause I love you but I can’t love you it’s such a shame
And no your not the one to blame
You probably think I’m runnin’ game
This comes from my childhood girl if I was good then I would stay
I think it’s fear of abandonment
I don’t know how to handle it
When they come and go I crumble slow just like I did as a kid
It made me toxic and hazardous
You won’t trust anyone after this
I’ll say goodbye to make you cry then afterwards plant a kiss
I pray for all these changes
All my friends have turned to strangers
My ex girl who I wronged is moving on and I don’t blame her
I been ugh
Been so selfish I’ve been broken I can’t help it
To the ones I’ve hurt for what it’s worth I’m sorry for what you dealt with
I just needa go somewhere for and I’ll be okay
I don’t need your help I’ll do this shit but in my own way
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)
Even if I try my very best you know I can’t stay
All I do is run and I’ll be runnin’ ‘til my last days
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)
I need you to leave me alone(Leave me alone)